I try to hide it and play hard
But the truth is I Still hurt inside
I think of the pain you put me through
And I cry so deep inside cause regardless of what happens 'I STILL LOVE YOU'
I have thoughts of what it should feel like
Thoughts of having a loving mother in my life
They say a mothers love should be the best feeling in the world
I say when I feel it I will let you know

I often wonder what I did wrong to make you call me such names
Curse me out and treat me like I don't belong
Why you talk about me negatively and never say "I LOVE YOU"
What did I do, why not just abort me or give me away to someone that would have actually supported me
I replay things in my mind all of the time
Tyring to figure out what went wrong
Then I had kids of my own
So I question myself
How will I be as a mother 'will I follow the same steps'
Thy say the apple doesn't fall far from the tree
But my answer is NO because I know that a mothers love is the best feeling in the world
And my boys do feel it and always let people know

I tell them I love them and that they do things really good
I tell them I am proud of them and 'I knew you could'
I hug them and talk to them and teach them what I know
I nurture and comfort them so they never feel alone
So why do I still hurt inside?
Because regardless of all of the love I get elsewhere
It can never fill the void of a mothers love because that should be the best feeling in the world
When I feel it I will let you know